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6 weeks postpartum — September 30, 2016

6 weeks postpartum

Wow, it has been six weeks since the birth of my little Livy. Time really does fly by :/ It’s crazy how much a tiny little human can impact your life in nothing but good ways; even with all the sleepless nights, the consistent crying. One smile from her makes up for all those tiring days. I love my little girl so much it’s unexplainable. I fall in love with her more and more everyday. There isn’t anything I  wouldn’t do for her. She really is magic.

My body is feeling more like its old self, just trying to lose the weight I gained during pregnancy. I’ve already lost a great deal just want to lose much more to the point that I feel comfortable. My delivery did not go as I planned that’s why I have to wait two months till I can exercise.  It was suppose to be a normal vaginal birth, but 22 hours in I was still dilating super slow and was stuck at 6-7 centimeters. Prior to my delivery I had researched so much on recovering after vaginal birth and what to expect before, during and after. I hadn’t researched anything with c section since I was 100% certain I was not going to have one, which wasn’t the case. I was sad that I was not going to experience a regular birth but it also didn’t matter, as long as I got to hold my baby doll and having her born safe. The actual surgery is still somewhat a blur. I remember crying and holding back on so many tears, I was scared and happy, I felt alone and cold in the surgery room. Omar had to wait to go in while nurses and doctor prepped everything. The only companion I felt was truly there was the anesthesiologist who was super  kind and talkative toward me. Not that everyone else was not, it’s just that they were busy prepping everything. During the surgery I felt dizzy and extremely cold to the point that I was shaking uncontrollably. When my Olive was born everything felt like a dream. I couldn’t grasp that she was already here because of meds and the anesthetics and because of after 9 months of her swimming inside me she had finally made her debut. I had to ask Omar if the doctor had gotten Olivia out already because I felt so unconscious. Olivia was sick when she was born and spent 3 days in the NICU till she felt better. It was painful seeing her sick and cry so intense. When your baby hurts, you hurt too.

Since the doctor and I thought in the beginning of labor that I was going to have a regular vaginal birth I got to experience the pain of those intense contraction. It feels like death. It felt as if my insides were being squeezed to the max. A  C-sections is an extremely painful recovery. While a vaginal is more of a extremely painful moment. It was all worth it because I got my baby girl and I am the happiest mama πŸ™‚ I couldn’t have done it without Omar though. I didn’t think that I could love him anymore than I already did, but I do. I love him so much more, so more intense, like I said a cesarean is an extremely painful recovery and Omar was with me every moment. Helping me change, helping me shower, helping me breastfeed, helping me feel happy when I experience baby blues after giving birth. He really is my rock.  I love my man, I love him so much. I love my little family more than words could ever explain. <3πŸ‘ͺ

August 15, 2016 Olivia Ruth Medina — August 20, 2016
πŸ’– — August 5, 2016

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We were surprised with another baby shower! A third one from Omar’s job. So thankful. I went from thinking we wouldn’t have a baby shower (not even one) because of getting our own place (cause moving is always costly) to having three amazing baby showers! Olivia’s big debut is literally any day now😍. I wish she would come right this second lol. We can’t wait to meet her! My heart is beyond happy❀️ my sweet precious Livy we are ready for youπŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§β€οΈπŸ’–πŸ˜sweetest man who I love madly 

The big day is almost here!Β  — July 17, 2016

The big day is almost here!Β 

My baby girl moving around like crazyπŸ’–πŸ˜ her big debut is almost here! 2.5 weeks left so It could be any day! It’s an unexplainable, magical, pure, love; the strongest love one could ever feel, nothing can compare. No other love can compare. I can’t wait for the excruciating pain of child labor because I know my daughter will be in my arms and ready to face the world with her loving parents and family by her side. You are everything my baby olive. β€‹
 Omar and I literally drove to San Jose on Friday for just super tacos lol. Well worth it though lol, and well worth the 3.5 hours it took us to get back home with all the crazy Bay Area traffic lol. 

Olivia is almost here!😍 — July 9, 2016

Olivia is almost here!😍

Omar and I got our own place about a month ago it’s so comfortable living with the person you truly love and feel so natural with. Now we are just waiting for our baby girls big debut! Gosh I’m so excited. I know every excruciating pain is going to be well worth it. I’m pretty much on maternity leave already, meaning Olivia is almost here! We can’t wait❀️ hurry up time! 

Had a very special surprise from the people I love. Was surprised with an amazing baby shower. Olivia and I feel so loved. Not only were we surprise with one baby shower but two! Another from work. That felt so nice. Olivia will be brought into this world loved by so many.a month or less till my precious Olive is here! My heart can’t wait!Omar graduated last year but attended this years ceremony. Seeing him in his robe was so magical. Love him forever. My little brother isn’t so little anymore. A new life of adulting awaits him lol. I might yell and 60% of the time get mad with him, but because I want him to do his best. I know he can that’s why I’m always on his case lol, cause I love him. Omar and I attending my cousins wedding.2nd baby shower that work threw😊.

😊  — May 11, 2016

😊 

 I love this picture so much πŸ˜‚. I love them madlyπŸ’–  
 I like himπŸ˜›

 Omar got to be Yarah’s sponsor. Yarah had a fun time, I’m happy she did😊. I’m so grateful Omar is close to my family. 

— May 3, 2016

We got to see our precious baby Olive today. She is magic, she is fiercely loved πŸ’– only 3 more months till we officially meet herπŸ’–πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§